Thursday, December 6, 2012

Fat Panic!

This isn't about fat in your food. This is about my fat body and me panicking about changing it. My baby brother is getting married. Not only will I of course be going to the wedding, but I've been asked to be a bridesmaid. I happily accepted and for months thought about losing weight and even pictured it in my head. Then they completed their wedding website that has a countdown to the wedding. I panicked. It's real now. This is happening whether I'm fat or not and hopefully I'm not. I can't take a picture that they will look at every year looking fat. I know this isn't about me, but I can't help but think about it. I actually haven't thought about anything else, but what am I going to do to lose something by August 2013!!! That is less than a year away. Yeah so I gotta do something. I know I won't reach my goal and I don't expect to, but I can't be where I'm at now. I just can't. Sad to say, but this event has been a motivator. I am determined.

What To DO?

I know it has been a while since my last post. Life has been crazy and it is finally at a point where I can take care of myself like I should. I have started to slowly workout again. I started doing workout dvd's. I've invested in a Wii so I can do some game workouts. I did Black Eyed Pea's Dance game. I loved it so I will be getting that soon. I was using my sister's. Though she said she doesn't like it and might be mailing it to me. Yay!

The real reason why I am writing is because I am frustrated with FOOD! I don't know what to eat anymore. Does this happen to anyone? What should I do? I am tired of the thousands and thousands of advice out there on what to eat and what not to eat. I've come to the realization that you really do have to find out what works for you. You have to do your research and go through trial and error with foods to see how your body reacts. I'd like to say that I will continue to try to eat paleo (although I haven't officially started), but that may be hard to do. Also each person seems to decide what they feel is paleo. I know there are some who don't eat rice and I know others who do. There are some who don't do butter and others do. It is a learning process and should be handled one day at a time.